My name is Brian. I shave my head, am unemployed, but I graduate college in May. I am not all useless, yet. To be honest I should have graduated college much sooner, but five years isn't bad. Took me five years to get out of high school too. I just didn't like going to the latter, but the former? I've enjoyed it. It has been super tedious, but enjoyable. The entire college experience suited me. Was also a great time to go and rebuild myself after insomnia, depression, and a thyroid issue drove me bat-shit insane half a dozen times. Made me super nihilistic for a few years, but eventually that tide rolled out, and well, here I am writing this much less nihilistic. Optimism is my bitch.
So changing gears, about this blog thing...I am not sure what it is, or how to really do it, but I feel like I need to do it. Something like writing practice, or therapy, but on the internet and public. Sounds like a shit idea reading that back, but fuck it. Even a bad idea can be great as long as you believe in it (stares at Stephenie Meyer). Anyways back to action, you see like an idiot I majored in writing in college, which means I'll never make money. Also this means that I will possibly have to seek asylum in some South American country when I can't comp my student loans, but whatever, because it made me better at doing something I love to do. As long as you love something, do it. The second you don't love it? Run away screaming. Reading that back, I can see why I am still single.
Anyway, about writing. I am writing a book, a novel to be exact. It is a story I've been evolving and cooking up for years. I really like it, have friends who've read pieces of it, and they like it. My issue with writing it is that I put far to much pressure on myself to do it right. Everything has to just be right. This low level ocd perfectionist shit is annoying, but sometimes it works out well. In editing it has proven useful. Kind of like a built in defense against surface editing, and that is a great thing. Unwillingness to change what you wrote is probably public enemy number 1. Progress gets stagnant, and a bad idea can get worse. That is why it's best to just admit when you're wrong, cut ties, and start over. Hey look, another reason why I am still single.
So this wasn't too bad, for me, and I'll probably do this again. Won't all be about writing. I play a bunch video games, watch a bunch of movies, play golf, play guitar, read, and sing. I am prone to write about training a dog, or my dearly departed Heidi cat...who knows, maybe I'll write about Doctor Who or Game of Thrones. Depends. Could be fun though. Could be fun.
P.S. Go Broncos!
